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blood brothers [lochlan] Oct 6, 2015 3:24:23 GMT

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A LIFELESS FACE THAT YOU'LL SOON FORGET

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IT WAS FAIR TO SAY AT THAG MOMENT, he didn't give a flying fuck about the man who'd taken refuge in the corner of his living room like an abandoned puppy who'd given up on finding a home. In his eyes, the guy was a grown man who was fully capable of making his own choices and could find his own girl. But, with a sideways glance to the dogs that had curled around him, he almost seemed nearly as satisfied. Maybe he was just good at hiding his sorrows. Poor guy.

Some other day, when there wasn’t a woman distracting him in every way possible, he’d take the poor chap out. But today his snores were simply white noise, blocked by his mind in order to focus on Sienna’s silken voice.

So, he'd always been a bit of a pushover, and her cries for distraction nearly crumpled him. He could relate to the emptiness, the void within his chest... But her pain was a whole new realm of despair that he couldn't fathom, one of betrayal and wrongdoings that nobody should've ever had to suffer. At the very least he felt obligated to take her pain in any way he could. Her tears were like a straight dagger to his heart and he practically cringed, removing a hand from her waist to gently brush away the tears on her cheek.

Soon though he found her words enough to pause his hand right where it lay. His palm flattened against her damp skin and he dragged a gentle thumb over her cheek. He knew then that this girl could have probably asked for the damn Eiffel Tower and he would have found a way to get it for her. What, with those big puppy dog eyes pleading him so desperately. She very well could have been playing him, but let's be honest, he probably wouldn't have cared much anyways.

He felt a gentle smile tug at his features after hearing her confession, but it was soon covered as he reached to kiss her again, lips salty with her tears. He was delicate about his every movement, naturally, but even so with her mood swings and the anxiety that was leaking through her drunken self. He focused his teal irises on her, their jade-flecked depths filled with confusion. Quite honestly, he didn't know what the hell to do. But he did know he couldn't leave her like that.

"Shhh." He soothed, his arms wrapping back around her waist, and with gentle movement he lifted her and himself off the couch. He didn't seem to mind the closeness the embrace required. "C'mon. Let's not wake them up."He gestured to Sleeping Beauty and the Beasts in the corner of the living room as he turned the opposite way, heading to the back of the tiny house where the man could have peace. Unfortunately, this room happened to be his bedroom (or was that fortunately? He couldn't tell. He had pure intentions, really). He set her down at the corner of the bed and took a seat beside her, only to press his lips reassuringly to her own again. "Whatever you need, Sienna." He laid a hand along her feminine jaw and kissed gently at the base of it, everything screaming at him to back away but he quickly found he couldn't, with her words still filtering through his mind, accompanied by her desperate cries it's like he'd become a robot, moving from someone else's control. Or, perhaps, just of an urge he'd stifled for way too long.

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blood brothers [lochlan] Oct 14, 2015 4:45:55 GMT

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If you believed When I said I'd be better off without you Then you never really knew me at all, If you believed When I said That I wouldn't be thinking about you You thought you knew the truth but you're wrong You're all that I need Just tell me that you still believe

You just couldn't shake fear, it would always be there, haunting your dream, feeding your doubts. It was a paralyzing emotion bent on breaking you down, suffocating you and forcing you into reluctant submission. There was no cure, only small fleeting moments where you felt like a human in the presence of another for once. There were times she felt like she couldn't breathe, that she wanted to run away from herself, but how the hell could that ever be possible?

She wanted everything and nothing at the same time. For now, she wanted to disappear into Lochlan (was that even possible? probably not) and just forget that she ever existed to begin with. Looking up at him to meet his steady teal hued eyes, she moved her mouth to speak, but no words came. No, what could she say? Fear had captured her voice and let her speechless, not even the alcohol in her system could place a wall between her and what she had experienced in the past.

The man shushed her gently which gave her a brief moment of calm as she found herslef being lifted up into his arms, to which she wrapped her arms around his neck, her legs around his waist, taking note of the moment. Sienna didn't want to let go, but we all had to let go of our comforts in the end, didn't we? His next words came as empty noise as she set a dampened gaze on the slumbering figures in the living room. What..am I doing...? Why... She talked to herself within her thoughts, her grip tightening on the man slightly as he carried her into the solitude of his bedroom.

Upon being set on the edge of the bed's surface, she looked at Lochlan through wary eyes. The taste of his lips meeting against hers was reassuring, if only for an allotted amount of time. Her heart drummed against her chest, but her mind was screaming, telling her to get away from this, that this was trouble, and some thoughts even described her demise. She was free, but felt trapped all at the same time. The blond woman took a sharp intake of breath to make sure that there was still oxygen in her lungs for she was certain that she had lost the ability to breathe. No, she was still breathing, most definately. Everything inside her being was screaming danger, yet she was stupid enough to keep trying to break free from her fears, and any overly anxious person who fought PTSD knew where that road led.

She sat there tensely, her body rigid as the man's hand met the delicate skin of her face before his lips followed suit. This is wrong. All wrong. He's going to hurt me, he's going to.. I'm going to stop breathing and he'll try to hurt me. He'll..." A million shades of different thoughts raced through her mind and before she allowed herself to go into a breakdown she leaned forward in a hurry and pressed her lips against the man's own kissing him repeatedly over and over again. She wasn't sure what she was doing, but she had to do something, anything. But each kiss only made her more fearful, more terrified. Her hands trembled incredibly and the thoughts that went through her head only grew darker. The woman only became more frantic because she just couldn't escape from herself, and before long she ceased kissing Lochlan and shoved him away. "I-I c-can't do it!" A string of tears were rolling down her cheeks again as she scrambled away from Lochlan, finding herself in the corner of the room sitting on the floor.

It was as though she had suddenly become like a wild, wounded animal. She wrapped her arms around her legs, pulling them to close. "I can't g-go a-anywhere.. how can you run away from yourself, Lochlan? How can I..how can I..." She sobbed into her knees, her blond locks falling into disarray. "To feel like I w-w-want to d-die...I'm c-crazy aren't I...?" That's what he thinks of me, some random insane girl. Too cowardly to kill herself and end her own misery, just stuck on suffering. Her negative thoughts only made her cry harder, she was fit to lose herself within herself for what light did the outside world ever shine on her? Darkness within, darkness on the outside, where was she to go?

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blood brothers [lochlan] Oct 15, 2015 4:27:33 GMT

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A LIFELESS FACE THAT YOU'LL SOON FORGET

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HE WANTED HER TO FEEL NORMAL AGAIN. Regardless of whether or not that ability had been taken from her against her will, he still wanted it for her. He still wished for her to be able to take a step out of her fear for however long she wanted and truly enjoy herself. Yet it seemed even that, was impossible. That woman had screwed her up to the point that she couldn’t even enjoy the simple pleasures in life… and that… that was fifty different shades of wrong.

He wasn’t normally so sensitive but something about this woman brought back the softer qualities of him that he’d long abandoned. He was intimidating and practically wrestled with drunken men for a living – he’d lost any sort of gentle quality to him. Though when he held her it was as though she was some sort of fragile creature, and one wayward touch would bring her crumbling. Even so felt her muscles stiffen. He kissed her lightly, yet she still hesitated to return the favor. Her movements were nearly robotic against his own seasoned ones, truly relaxed for the first time without the influence of alcohol. He, very much knew how he felt and this freeing sensation he received only proved it.

The near-euphoria of it all brought him back into his long term memory, and he almost found himself comparing her to his previous love. Darkness crept in along with nostalgia and his grip on her increased however slightly, longing to pull himself back to the present. While the majority of him wanted to compare and contrast, perhaps even make new memories, it wasn’t very long before he noticed her tension had grown to a whole new level.

The man felt hands collide with his chest in a panicked frenzy. His eyes flew wide in shock and he shuffled backwards immediately, initially concerned that he had hurt her. Did he say something wrong? Wasn’t she the one that just asked him to kiss her? Seconds later she’d burst out into tears, and strangely, he found some sort of relief in the fact that it hadn’t been him to cause her sudden pain. Or had it? Confusion was an understatement… but he didn’t run.

He kept his distance from her, his jaw clamped shut against any sort of remark as she scurried to the corner like a feral animal. For the moment he allowed her to have her space, simply listening, watching, and allowing his heart to break for the poor woman. Images flashed before his mind, memories of a suicidal ex-wife that he was unable to console. Fear pierced him; the look in Sienna’s eyes nearly mirrored that of his past. Was this all going to happen again? What if he said the wrong thing? What if he couldn’t help her? What if she ended up dying in his arms?

His heart raced in his chest like a dozen thoroughbreds thundering down the home stretch. Her words terrified him and it showed in the depths of his teal gaze. “Sienna…I-I” He practically stammered, his voice shockingly gentle as he turned to crouch several feet away and dragged a hand across his masculine jaw. His eyes couldn’t settle on any one thing, shifting across the carpet, to the wall behind her, across her arms which hugged her knees. “You’re not crazy. I don’t want you to ever think that about yourself.” He insisted quietly, moving slowly to extend a comforting hand to her…his chest ached as he struggled to find the right words to say. “You’re not crazy. But you can’t run away, either. The world is an evil place…but you can get through this. Please... let me help you… I don’t know what I would do if I lost you too. You’re the only friend I have right now.. as… pathetic as that sounds.” He found the courage for a small laugh, but it was fairly obvious he was shaken to his core, and this was something he would never take lightly. Ever so cautiously, he then tried to brush a lock of hair away from her features.

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blood brothers [lochlan] Oct 16, 2015 3:36:17 GMT

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If she had been able to set her life how she wanted it to be, perhaps everything would have gone smoothly. She was what, twenty-five now? If it hadn't been for Dallas ruining her life towards the end of her high school year, maybe it would have been possible for her to go to college, graduate, heck maybe even start a career, get married and raise a family. But oh no, fate was too cruel, too fucked up. During her worse moments, she couldn't even hold a glass properly for her hands would continously tremble.

So she'd spent ten years like this, a sorry excuse for a human being. She was pathetic, expecting her older brother to offer her some kind of protection, and that he did, beyond belief. And then there was Lochlan, could she trust him? Did she want to trust him? Then again, what if Dallas just took him away from her too...? The short-lived moment of bliss pressing her lips to the man's own had evaporated as soon as it had surfaced.

Now she was back into the reality of her terror, the alcohol having done nothing in the end to save her from this downward spiral into an abyss of severe anxiety. Panicked, fearful sobs racked the woman's body as she cowered in fear from herself, the man nearby, everything. She was grateful that no one approached her, maybe she could be left to die in this pathetic excuse for peace. She sat there enveloped in her own dark world, reliving the nightmares that tormented her in the afterhours. "Don't h-h-hurt me...p-please Dallas.. I-..I-I'm sorry..I d-didn't mean it..I.." She stammered, repeating the statement and apologizing over and over again.

The skinny blond visibly trembled, living her nightmare in reality. It wasn't until the man's voice broke through her fearful muttering that she looked up, tears still rolling and dampening her cheeks at the same time. Her eyes watched the man warily as he crouched a few feet away keeping his distance. Her heart felt as though it was being squeezed into submission, like something wanted to will it to stop. Fearing the unknown, the woman bit down on her lower lip until blood was drawn. The pain of it was blocked out as she was more aware of what was going on in front of her at that moment. "I'm..I-I'm n-not crazy?" She murmured quietly, mostly to herself as she was confused, almost like she couldn't believe it. But why would this man lie to her? Then again...why did anyone lie, really?

Sienna's doubts were slightly ebbed as Lochlan repeated that she was not crazy, perhaps he was right. Her body visibly tensed and fear flashed through her eyes as a hand was stretched out towards her. "I..." She began, slightly comforted by the short laughter that followed the man's words. "Yo--you'll help...me?" She asked quietly, but how could he do that? She couldn't even help her own self, what more could he do for her? But apparently she was all he had..and he didn't want to lose her..? "Y-you're the o-only sane p-person I h-have..m-my only f-f-friend. B-but I d-d-don't want to..to lose you either..because...I-I--..." Her words were cut abruptly short when the sound of the bedroom door opening caught her off guard.

Fear returned to her eyes as she immediately shifted her attention to the door. A figure soon appeared in the entrance, the stranger, Cody. "Hey man, I gotta pee, where's the bathr--" The man immediately trailed off as he caught sight of the man and woman towards the corner of the room. "What are y'all doing anyway? Hey, wait you were going to get action and didn't even invite me?" He sounded honestly disappointed as though he was supposed to get a party invite.

Unfortunately for the wolf shifter, Sienna wasn't having it. "N-no no...g-go away..go away...go away..." She spoke over and over again, slowly pulling herself back into her shell. "O-only Lochlan..I...no..p-please..Lochlan..." Her words came out a stumbled mess, but it was clear who she trusted most, whose company she wanted to keep. A frown appeared on Cody's face at the woman's words, he honestly couldn't decipher what she meant. "What's wrong with her?" He asked, before he began to second guess coming into the room for the woman started to sob uncontrollably and Cody surely wanted no part of that. "Uh..so I'm just..gonna find it myself. Right." As if he lived here, and if Lochlan didn't officially kick him out of the house he would be there to stay, forever mooching off the man and reaping whatever benefits he had. When the man disappeared out of the room, closing the door in his wake, the woman's sobbing eased once more.

Her hypervenilating slowed back to normal, steady breathing as she set her gaze back on Lochlan. Yet she didn't leave her comfort zone of the corner, at least here she could watch her back. What was she going to say earlier? She couldn't remember, it wasn't like it mattered all that much..right? A trembling hand reached out to gently touch the man's jaw when he returned to his original position. "I-Is..t-this b-bad..? I j-just..felt like I-I...s-should." She stammered quietly as she traced the man's jaw with a still trembling, but less so, hand. But it looked like the worst of her panic attack was over, yet she was still fearful, expecting it to start up again at any moment. "D-do..y-you remember when we..rode our h-horses t-together? C-could we d-do that a-again s-sometime...please?" She asked after a silent moment of tracing the outline of the man's jaw up to his lips before finally settling to lean her body into the man's chest altogether.

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